What cannot kill you, makes you stronger

as i was lying on my bed.i was thinking,am i really passionate abt my current job now?or am just passing time working in a childcare?do i really want to study the diploma they offer me.then i realise-i dont feel passionate and looking forward to my job everyday.I'm really just passing time there.and i want the dip for the sake of becas it's a DIPLOMA.then i realise how serious my problem is.lets say if I'm really taking up the offer,i've got to stay working as a childcare teacher for 3 and a half years (2 years ofstudy and 1 .5 years of study bond and above that i'll get paid for studying while working so the $$$ is not a bad sum though the pay is only 3 digit.)HOWEVER,its gonna be VERY VERY VERY tough cas dear's also pursuing his army career now and may not be home often.so u see???no husband??






talked to dear over the phone regarding our future and our career.i told him-"if we have no baby now,i'll defintely sign on police or other UG.but given my current O level status,i'll only be a corporal.so it's not worth to sign on now.might as be bonded with the childcare,at least got ppl to take care of shayenne and get a dip to start off with a better rank in police.but very very very xin ku larh,got to suffer for 3.5 years and i really feel very stressful working there.






dear told me that he'll support wateva decision i make.but it's still afterall better to stick with the childcare and get a diploma first.afterall shayenne is still young.by the time i finish my study bond with company.shayenne will be about 4 years old,by that time he's army career and income will also be stable and i can pursue my police career.even though it's gonna be tough on me for the next 4 years or so but what you reap is what you sow..we'll got to work hard and support each other through and be there for each other,for the sake of us and shayenne






???(wha...)and i think think think..ya..starting a family isn't that easy.there is no short cut way to it.o level will bring uto no where in times of recession like this.since im given a chance to study and work and with ppl taking care of shayenne at the same time,y not???endure for the next 4 years...yeah?afterall something is better than nothing!